Weigh in, Photos and food!

I am so glad this week is over. Monday it was –22 here today its 25.  that’s a 50 degree heat wave!  I am officially over winter, I am so glad we are spending next weekend in a 80 indoor water park.  Bathing suit or not! 

I have worked hard this week to stay active and count my calories. I weigh in this morning and I was down 1.8!! Yeah that means I made up my gain from last week and lost a bit more.  My goal for next week is at least 1.6!  The only thing is I will be weighing in a day early next week. and its an off week at boot camp so I need to push myself this weekend.  Next week is also my measurements day!!!

I wanted to post some photos of my progress:

	This was December 2009..Not sure of my weight but by Jan. 1st I was 263.
	Feb 2010. The outdoor hockey game in my XXL jersey. I think I was bigger then the DD Cup! Weigh high 250’s
On June 1st I started my MVBW competition weighing in at 247. I do not have my starting photo
These two photos are from Aug 2010 about 8 weeks into the contest about 230.
	Oct 2010, weight 222, notice my hips are getting smaller
	These three are from today!  January 28th at 211.  With a fitted-ish shirt.  Notice the waist is starting to get defined.  My hubby likes the butt!

I have to tell you about my lunch and dinner.  Every other Friday I work (I know not a bad deal right!) the Fridays I work we order lunch.  One of my coworkers has a wheat allergy so its easy for me to order healthy because she is so limited on options.  Today I decided I wanted a salad with grilled chicken.  I ordered a creaser salad figuring I would eat the salad and chicken and use my dressing that I keep at work.  For the first time ever the poured the dressing on the salad. there must have been enough dressing for 3 salads..seriously it was like I ordered dressing with a side of lettuce.  The “grilled” chicken was breaded with no grill marks..it wasn’t very greasy but it certainly was not healthy. I was so disappointed.  Grrr.  I just ate the chicken.

Now for dinner I have a new favorite!  Last night I baked some chicken and then chopped it up so it was ready for tonight.  I baked with it some of the BBQ rub from pampered chef and basil seasoning.  When I got home I heated it up to make chicken wraps.  Instead of lettuce I used Cole slaw mix (without any of the dressing).  It tasted so good. the cabbage gave it a crunch and it blended so well with BBQ season.  Sorry we ate it too fast before I could take a photo! 

everyone have a great weekend!

Hate Loss Challenge update..

Yesterday I was dealing with some anger.  My husband work from 1am to 1pm again and he really wanted to go to bed when the kids and I arrived home.  But I wanted to get in an extra boot camp session.   Since bootcamp was earlier on Tuesday I could go and get back early enough for David to get to bed early.  Wouldn’t you know that Tyler would throw a fit? he wanted to go with me, he didn’t want me to leave.  Why do I have to workout and daddy doesn’t?

I was so mad at myself. Why did I get like this? why did I gain 110 pounds (160 graduation weight to my 273 highest?)?  Why did I decide to do something about it after I had kids and less time?  Why did I completely give my 20’s away?

Of course bootcamp sucked.  it was sprints with some of the nasty things like squat jumps and squat thrust and more.  During the 2.5minute heavy cardio finish My trainer Steve said: “If you are hating me right now then you are putting in the right amount of effort.”  But I wasn’t hating him I was hating me. I did this to myself, he was helping me.

I feel this journey consumes so much of my time and effort.  I am constantly thinking about food and what I am eating.  How many calories, how many carbs/protein.  Did I burn enough calories, did I drink enough water?  I plan my meals 2 weeks out at a time.   ugh..I just want a day that I get up and eat and don’t think about this.

BUT I did make this decision to get healthy, to drop the weight, To allow that hot mama that is inside me to come out.  I know she is there, last week I saw her boob!! they were cute!  the week before my husband was seeing her butt!  This week I am noticing a more defined waist..Today I put on a fitted top with the plan to wear a sweater over it.  That way I could feel hot that I had a fitted top on and but not have to worry about what other thought…it wasn’t like spandex it just wasn’t super loose.  Well before covering up with the sweater I looked in the mirror.  I looked good!  I could wear that shirt without fear of people talking behind my back that I am crazy for wearing a fitted shirt.  I had curves…the good kind.

The craziest thing happened while walking down the hallway, someone stopped me to say how great I looked…”I was melting away”.  At first I tried to push the complement off..my response was “oh I haven’t really lost any weigh I have been bouncing up and down.” but then I remembered that I need accept the complements..I need to believe in what others are seeing.  So I added to my response: “I am really trying to be good with my food, and build up my strength.”  ……Guess what their response was: “IT SHOWS!”

I just want to add that his week I have been tracking my food..like really really tracking my food.  Some things are shocking like the 2 cup of grapes ate up so many of my calories and carbs.  on top of it I am trying to cut back on my Peanut butter…that didn’t work. I was going to try some of Those powdered PBs but then I decided to quit Peanut butter.  This week I made the decision not to buy Peanut butter.  I need to stop eating it by the spoonful…I am in withdraw.  I am watching “I use to be Fat'” and first I have  to say that the trainer is kind of hot!!  Sorry I am off track!  This weeks “former fat person” just described his relationship with peanut butter.  It sounded like mine!  I have had my daily calories but I am so hungry today..I hit my protein goal.  I guess I need to go to bed and not think about it.

Fabulous Friday!

Okay so I know I am a few days late but you will understand why in a few!

Last week David worked so much overtime and my kids were just not sleeping.  Of course I don’t sleep well when David not home anyway so by Friday I just wanted to crash.  I was napping on the couch and it was so snowy out, as in whiteout!  I didn’t want to go to bootcamp.  I knew I needed to but it would have been so much easier to just stay under my blanket.  After a Get your ass down here post from my trainer I motivated myself up and out the door..  I know I want to undo my 1 pound gain.

I walked in and saw everything we had to do on the board:

1) 50 kettlebell swings – heaviest you have ever gone

2) 25 Pushup from the toes

3) 30 burpies without stopping

4) 2 minute plank without stopping

5) 20 Ringrows without stopping

6) 20 TRX bicep curls

7) 20 TRX Tricep curls

8) 20 Dead lifts with the Beast – 100 pound KB

I looked at him and told him he was nuts. this was like a new years resolution, not my Jan 20th resolution.  I had never done ANY pushups from my toes, I can not do more then 8 burpies without stopping, the longest plank I had ever done was 1minute and on Monday I lifted only once the 70 pound KB.  REALLY on a friday that I am dragging my ass you want me to do this.

wait there was more!  We were in teams…So if anyone in your team stopped doing #3, #4, #5 the whole team had to start over…No Pressure.

Deep Breath..

GO!

25 minutes later we were done.  I did it.  Okay so I was last to finish my burpies and I wanted to fall over but I didn’t.  My plank sucked I was shaking and everything was burning and I was losing my footing but I did it.  my first 5 pushups from my toes Rocked..the other 20 were questionable but I did a pushup from my toes!!

Then it was the BEAST!!  First Cat went and she rocked it like always!  Then I went and the first few were not to bad but it felt like it got heavier as I went along.  He posted a video of Thursday and Fridays workout.  I am the black pants and green shirt doing the beast right at the end.  Midway thru I am standing and watching Cat with the beast …I didn’t even recognize myself. I was looking for someone bigger! that was cool!

I was on a high after this workout.  I was so active on Saturday !  First thing in the morning I took the kids out to play (it was only 15 degrees out) we playing in the snow and I pulled them in the sled. When my mom came over I shoveled the deck!  Then later in the afternoon I took ty sledding to the back hill.  I pulled him in the sled out to the hill with my snowshoes…all 900 feet thru a few snowdrifts.  He went down the hill I think 5 times, each time I walked down the hill and back up with the sled.  The hill is about 600 feet long.  The we walked home.  At night when everyone went to bed I did a 30 minute interval workout on my T’mill along with some crunches.

Today I wasn’t as motivated with working out as I was getting things done. We cleaned out the kids rooms and closets it was a great day!!  I hope I keep it up thru this week…tomorrow morning the temp is going to be –16..danger!  at 6pm tonight it was already –7.  Stay warm.

Weigh in

after my great weigh in last week, this week I gained.  I weigh in yesterday morning at 745 and by 3pm my period had arrived…case closed.  Oh and I did not hit my water goal at all this week.  I am not discouraged I had expected it.  I will get it back next week!  weigh in number 213.4.

This week I went stronger on my weights, its nice to realize your success.  I used the heavier Kettlebell, I lasted longer on certain timed exercises.  One of the finisher at bootcamp was a 5 minute burpee burn.  we had to do 6 burpees at the start of each minute then we got a break till the next round started at the top of clock.  I was able to at least a 10 second break each round.  last time we did this I was doing burpees the entire 5 minutes

my trainer asked me to do video on my success so I think we maybe doing that today before bootcamp- hopefully to snow stops so I can go.

HL Challenge week 3–Cute boobs

 

So I wasn’t sure what I was going to write about this week.  Then a funny thing happened tonight after bootcamp.  I was in the bathroom waiting for the water to get warm for my shower when I just out of the blue said:

“I have cute boobs”

It was unexpected.  I wasn’t even thinking of the challenge.  I just came out and there it was.  I was shocked and then I was kind of giggling at myself!  But there you have it I have cute boobs!.

So I am writing this while watching MTVs “I use to be fat” this girl is putting herself down so badly.  I feel so bad for her, I just want to reach in the tv and help her.  This week at work I again noticed that I am very annoyed by peoples negativity.  I just want people to be positive and I have gone out of my way to try to do thing differently from the norm at work.

Well I am tried so I am going to get things together for tomorrow.  And maybe look at my cute boobs again!!!  I hope you all are doing well this week!

Heavy

Last night I watched Heavy on A&E. The lady said it was selfish of her
to be fat because she can not do things with her family. But my
struggle has been that I feel selfish leaving my family to go to the
gym. It just showed to me that not everyone's journey is the same and
we can not judge others.

I did like the show Heavy and I will probably continue to watch it. I
like seeing others success as motivation for my own.

Question:

My weigh has yo-yoed over the year. My highest known non-pregnancy
weight was 273. I was able to get down to 201 before getting pregnant.
I started back up trying to lose weigh again on January 1 2010, 6
months after my daughter was born. I was 263 that day.

So when I talk about my weigh loss success do I use 263 or 273?