I am so competitive. Its has its good and bad side. It can drive me and help me achieve great things but it can also derail me.
Knowing that i am not "winning" what i set out to do can put me in the downward spiral. Which is what happened in January. I bet $20 i could drop 5% by March 27th. Here i am 12 days away from that deadline and 7 pounds need to fall off my ass for me to win. In Jan and feb my weight was like a roller coaster and with each gain came frustration. Of course the stress at work didnt help..as we have been in very high stress meetings. As a federal Employee I stand to lose 20% of my pay soon...ugh.
But when I am motivated to win, and my head is out of my ass like it is now. Nothing can stop me. I love the feeling of that self power!! Last night it would of been so easy to eat at fast food. I went from Gymnastics, to soccer to an AHL game. But I didnt!!! I grilled chicken in the morning so i just need to warm it up before leaving for gymnastics. Then i had a cheese stick and almonds for snack. Tyler did allow me to have some of his nachos. Thats the first real slip of crap food all week.
The boilermaker is a big event around here. Its a 15K that gets some national attention, they cap the race at 14K runners. This year it sold out in like 24hours. The first 4 miles are uphill. I ran it for the first time last year....My training runs were done in about 1hour 40 but on that day I came in at 1 hour and 53 minutes. Ugh i was sick the week before and went on vacation the week before that. Bad movie.
So now I know that a bioch at work is running it. She ran it a few years ago in 1hour 44 minutes..which is why my goal last year was 1 hour 40!! Since i will now have an extra day off a week starting in April and 20% less pay. I will be using that as my training day. I will shave major time off my time. This is just pushing me to eat right. Yesterday i was so hungry at lunch and i wanted to be so bad...but i got up, grabbed my ipod and went for a walk in the snow.
Goals are not achieved with wishes.