I don’t know what my problem is. It’s so tied to the stress in my life, the changing weather and lack of sleep but the fact is those are just more excuses. I have no mojo. I don’t have that push to get up and get moving, to avoid the temptations of the world. Part of the issue is while I am not satisfied with where I am at, I am happy so its not pushing me to stay focused and on track.
I don’t even know what to write to keep the post going.
Today I went to work despite feeling like crap. But then I wanted carbs, a bagel with PB. I only ate half of it but I also had candy. I am just making slow steps forward. like 2 forward and 1 step back. I was at 177 about a month ago but now I am ate 178 last week. This morning I was at 184. In the mean time I am rocking out at bootcamp – I moved up to the 62 pound KettleBell for swing. I can push thru a workout but its because I have to in order to undo what I have done nutritionally. I want to go back to workout for me not for damage control.
I have not run in a while. The last time I ran was when my foot was sore for days afterwards. Running use to let me clear my mind. Its one hour of me pushing myself ..vs a trainer standing over me pushing me. Its one hour of me to think things thru verse the 20 minute one way drive to Next level of me thinking about the to do list. so….
I figured its do or die time. I stayed on track this summer because I had something to focus on. I needed that again I signed up for the toughest 10K in our area. There is a 1 mile up hill run that is so freaking steep – you know the hills that colleges are built on..this hill is so steep it has 2 colleges.
So here’s the thing its 13 days away. and Like I said I have not run in about 21 days. I have no choice to eat well, I have no choice to stay focused and stay moving. Did I mention my family is going, hubby, kids, mom, sister and maybe Bff and her kids? yeah this race is 90 minutes away. afterwards they are having the best chicken bbq our area offers. Then we are going to a pumpkin farm and cider mill.
I am optimistic that this is the answer, that my funk is over.