welcome........

to my life battle. where to start? I have always been heavy its has always been a battle for me. By some miracle..okay a growth spurt, i lost a lot of weigh around 11th grade and managed to feel good about myself . I weigh in at about 150.

College came and it the freshmen 15 per semester. by the time i graduated college i was about 80 pounds heavier than high school. I walked down that asle as a fat bride ..about 235. Over the next few years i hid from my fat by eating more. I slowly moved up about 20 more pounds.

After my son was born i lost my job and a bit of depression pushed me up higher. I remember signing up for weigh watchers and weighing in at 273 pounds. Seeing that number was like a gun shot to the chest. In about 4 months time i was able to get down to 240. For the rest of 2007 i hopped around in the 240s.

2008 was a changing moment for me. I woke up new years and I was sick of everything: Sick of how i felt, sick of how looked, what clothes i had. That moment was enhanced by that weight loss competition at work. By June of 2008 i was down 46 pounds to 201! Life was great. I have some great photos from that summer of me! By fall I was pregnant, and to avoid morning sickness i was eating carbs like mad.

I was 280 something when i gave birth in July 2009...that summer i was able to get down to 249 but gained it back during the holidays.

So here i was on january 1st 2010..263 pounds, Nasty. I started working out and watching what i was eating. I ended up losing about 18 pounds by June 1 - or 1 pound a week. Then i was selected by the local tv station to work with a trainer all summer and lose weight. MVBW - could this be what i needed?

Well we are 7 weeks in out of 12. I have lost about 15 pounds i feel really good and very energized. I feel like i could reach my goal. I plan to document my journey here.

So here it is July 27th and this morning i weigh in at 229.8

These are my goals:

• By the End of MVBW (8/25) i would like to be around 220-215.
  

• I want to be below 200 by my birthday (Nov 21)
  

• I want to be at 170-160 by Memorial Day 2011. Ideally i would love to be at 163 so i can say i lost 100 pounds.

I know this will not be easy but i will use this as my place to say what i need to, inspire myself by my prior achievements and reward myself. Please feel free to follow along it will not always be pretty or politically correct.

I know that there is a hot mama inside....now to get her out of hiding!